I'm a Bird...But I Don't Fly

The new year is approaching and we are ready to name our resolutions and make a plan to follow them for the month of January.  We will be fully committed, up until life sets in come February.

It’s the same thing every year. Earlier this year, I resolved to make a lifestyle change when it came to eating and fitness. I wanted to be healthier and happier. I stuck it through for a couple of months, running everyday and being mindful of what I ate. Then I moved. The drastic change in my routine and in my budget became my focus and I put my resolution on the back burner. 

The same thing happened with my writing. Although I claim to have this passion for writing and I really have a huge vision for this site and a heart for blogging, I hardly ever share it. Just like with my New Year’s resolutions each year, I get in the zone and have so many ideas and so much I want to share and do with my platform. My rush of motivation gets drowned out when life starts to get too busy and I just don’t make my writing a priority. I am a writer, but I don’t write. I don’t focus or prioritize my biggest goal because I’m too busy focusing on mundane everyday things and worries.

I had to stop and think of why I do this. If I’ve set out to have this platform, why don’t I make it the most important thing on my agenda ? If I’m being honest, it’s because I don’t believe in it. I mean, just think; I pour out my heart in my posts and then wait to see if I’ll get a response, some feedback. What happens when I don’t reach anyone ? There is a reason I post Women Empowerment posts on my Instagram every Wednesday and try my best to promote other bloggers. I like to acknowledge others because this is hard work. Imagine putting all your focus and energy, all your resources, into this one goal and it turns out to be a huge flop.

It’s totally understandable but such an unnecessary fear. There are things God plants in our hearts that are so big, they scare us. But that is the whole point ! It’s not for us to do. It’s up to us to lean in deeper and closer to God and trust that He will guide us telling us when to go to the right or to the left. It’s not up to us to believe in our own abilities, it’s up to us to believe in a God who never fails.

I’m a writer, but I don’t write as much as I should. I’m constantly having sparks of inspiration and I allow them to be put out by my everyday life but, what on earth is more important than the dream God planted in me? 

I have so much in store for this site and so many experiences I want to share in the coming year. My goal is to grow and push my followers upward as I’m doing so and I’m not going to let any lack of motivation or self doubt get in my way anymore. This is more than a resolution, God has put it in me to rise up and help others by sharing my experiences and that’s what I’m going to do ! 

 

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Philippians 3:12