For a long time I allowed myself to remain stagnant under the pretense of needing to be perfect. I didn’t reach out to make new friends or build community because I thought I wasn’t ready yet. I would ask myself, “Is my house in order?"-or-“ Am I presentable?". If the answer was no, and being a single mom, it usually was, I wouldn’t go out when invited, I wouldn’t invite people over. I would stay in my "getting ready" bubble and I just wouldn’t move. I had in mind the kind of person God wants me to be and since I wasn’t there yet, I wasn’t ready to connect. I wouldn’t say that encouraging word, or do that good deed, I wouldn’t share the hope of glory with others for fear that they would think “Surely this struggling woman isn’t preaching to me?” I think back at that time and all the people I could’ve helped and reached if I wouldn’t have been waiting.
It was like I was standing at one end of a bridge. Just waiting. Waiting to be ready. Waiting to be the person God needs me to be. Or the person God has called me to be. Not realizing that although God was and is still working on me, I am exactly where I need to be for today and I can choose to live in all of my potential for this day. I can choose to do what God has made me for in this day, on this day.
The Bible doesn't tell us to stay at home and get ready for what God's doing in our life. It says "Be ready !!"
Are you presentable? The only right answer to this is have you "Put on (then), as God's chosen one(s), holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience." Are you the same person that you were a year ago? A month ago? Or have you grown and learned from yesterday? No, you aren't done yet. You aren't where you need to be. But learn to be at peace with how far you've come.
We are called to bear with one another, to forgive, to love, serve, be loved, give. And you don't need to be perfect or qualified to do any of these things. God is qualified. He is more than qualified and He lives within us. Just allow him to shine through. Clothe yourself in dignity and strength and laugh without fear of the future because God is doing a good work in you.
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30